Rhomania’s General Crisis, part 12.2-Choosing Sides, Part 3:
The Pit of the Forsaken, the White Palace, November 19, 1661:
Adam looked across the chamber that was Room 14 at the man. The man was much smaller than he had been six weeks earlier. His stocky well-built frame had dwindled to not much more than the cliché skin-and-bones. His clothing was in tatters, showing dusky skin covered in dirt and sores, his hair matted with sweat and teeming with lice. There was no blood or vomit on the floor, but that was because Adam had just had the room cleaned.
Father Andronikos was ever so faintly whimpering as his breath rasped like leather being torn, restrained in a chair while Adam made some notes. The recorder sat silently while Adam finished and looked at the final person in the chamber.
This was Tourmarch Thomas Maios, 1st Tourmarch of the Athanatoi and right-hand man of Strategos Plytos. He looked a bit young for his position in Adam’s opinion, but fit perfectly the profile of tall, dark, and handsome. The Tourmarch frowned. “He still hasn’t agreed to cooperate. My superiors are getting impatient.”
“This is a most careful case. It would hardly suit your superiors if the subject pretended to agree to cooperate, but then publicly denounced them.”
“Attempting such deceit seems out of character, even for something like this.”
“I agree, but best to be sure. He must agree to cooperate, and his will must be genuinely broken, before I certify his useability.”
“And so far, you have yet to do either.”
Adam resisted the urge to snarl. The man’s perfectly tailored uniform, the precisely-trimmed nails and beard, and the hint of perfume, was entirely out of place here. This was Adam’s domain, and this brat was just an unwelcome guest in it.
“That is about to change.”
“I don’t see it.”
“Which is why I am running this and not you.” Adam enjoyed the flash of annoyance in the officer’s face. “His will is just about to break. One more slight push and it will.”
“Then get on with it.”
“His will is about to break, but so is his body. It would hardly do if he ended up dying. Then you’d just have a body, and that’s not very helpful. He needs a rest session, but next time he is processed he will yield and do what your superiors desire.”
“Very well,” the Tourmarch grumbled.
Adam rang a bell and a pair of guards entered, Adam ordering them to take the prisoner to his cell. After they’d left, the Tourmarch started to exit too, but before he did, he turned back to look at Adam. “Does it ever bother you, what you do?” The last word sneered with disgust.
Adam’s eyes narrowed. “If it did, I certainly would not tell you. And you have no right to judge me, boy. Only God can do that. And he will have far more than just me on his docket. I may do the dirty work, while you sit up there in the sun with your perfumes and your sweet buns, but I only do that work because people like your superiors, and you, desire it.”
“We do what we do for the good of the state.”
“Then the same applies to my work. But if you really believed that, why do you ask me if my work, which you order, bothers me? About whose conscience are you really inquiring?”
* * *
All of his body hurt, but the sharp pangs had thankfully faded. Now it was just a constant dull throbbing, an endless ache that seeped through his bones and the stretched and twisted remnants of his guts. This ache never faded, he knew, at least until he did what they wanted.
Andronikos shifted, leaning up against the cool stone wall of his cell, dim flickers of light coming through the barred window that was set in the door. He moaned, a sound which almost, but not quite, drowned out that of the scampering rats. He’d named several. The nearest sounded like Nereas, jaunty, happy, as if he enjoyed being a rat, unlike the others. The others stole some of what little food Andronikos received, but they did that only to survive, for they too needed to eat. But Nereas seemed to do it for the pleasure.
It sounded like just Nereas for now, although there were others. Yet Andronikos had not named any of them Adam. For he was an honest man, and he would not insult an honest man that way.
Everything Adam had ever told him had been the truth. Everything. And that was brought Andronikos Hadjipapandreou to despair, for that included what he had said about his body and his will when they had first meant. Andronikos had prided himself on his physical fitness, and while that was wasted away, his vanity had enabled him to endure Adam’s tortures, so that his will would break before his body did. Andronikos knew Adam was right. That the next time he was in that room, his will would finally break. He would do what was demanded of him, no matter what it was, even if it went against everything he’d ever believed, because he just could not take any more.
He knew it was sinful, blasphemous, but he could think of no other way out. And so he prayed to God. He prayed to God that he might die.
The door to his cell opened, which was not the response he’d expected. The guard looked at him and then set down a tray. Andronikos’s eyes had adjusted to the dim light enough to see the bowl of porridge and the jug of wine, the usual miserable fare that was his diet. Then he saw a nearly fist-sized orange block next to the bowl, a hunk of cheese, something he had not seen since he had entered this world below.
He lunged for it, crying out as his fingers touched it. Taking a bite, he moaned, not a cry of pain. Frankly, it sounded rather sensual. In the world above, he had never been without some cheese, one of his weird eccentricities, but not down here. Here, that small pathetic comfort had been denied him, and now that paltry thing was the most wonderous thing.
It was low-quality cheese, but that didn’t matter anymore. His teeth tore into it as he devoured it, pausing only to snarl at the rats gathering on, the sheer venom in that snarl making them scurry away; they were not used to such fire. And though he had just prayed for death, the presence of food in his system awakened dormant instincts. The porridge and wine did not long outlast the cheese.
Andronikos slumped back against the wall, exhausted after that sudden burst of exertion. That miserable repast, which even the dockworkers in his apartment would have considered threadbare, had been the most wonderfully-tasting meal he had ever had.
Now he felt drowsy. On the one hand, he wanted to fight it, for sleep would bring that moment closer, when he returned to the chamber and Adam would make his demand, and Andronikos would no longer be able to deny him. But he just felt so tired…
He also felt something else. No. He didn’t feel something else. That unending suffocating ache was gone; despite the food, his body felt empty now. Yet…Another feeling now started to fill his body this time, but not pain. It was like that fuzzy warmth one felt when one woke up, all wrapped up snuggly in one’s blanket, but not just on the outside. Like the ache, it flowed through him, filling his body and seeping through his bones.
Then he heard a voice. It did not sound like one of the guards. For a moment, Andronikos could not understand, and then he gasped. He had not been condemned for his prayer. The voice knew why he had asked such a thing, and it did not judge him for that. It understood, and it was proud of him.
Andronikos wept, and as the tears flowed, in addition to hearing, he saw.
The last thing Father Andronikos Hadjipapandreou saw before he died was his God smiling at him.
* * *
Adam turned right at the intersection and looked down the street, which sloped downhill, and paused for a moment. He looked above the sea of reddish-brown tiles and the various traces of smoke from numerous cooking fires. Up in the wide blue, clouds danced, traces and tumblers, puffs and piles. The world above tended to think little of such things, but after a stint in the world below, Adam found many to be quite beautiful. He started walking down the street.
Logistically, it had been an easy thing to lace Andronikos’s food and drink. It was not the first time he had provided poison. He had done it for a father, and then for his son, and finally for the daughter.
But this one was a bit different. Andronikos’s death before he cooperated would be a black mark on his record, but Adam’s was too robust now to be affected much. Still, why had he done it? Adam could hardly have refused the three, even if he had wanted to, but that was hardly the case with Andronikos.
Perhaps it had to do with those who’d demanded Adam work on Andronikos. It was true that all of Adam’s masters had wanted men like him, but that did not mean that they were all exactly the same. Adam practiced great cruelties; he was not so vain and fatuous as to pretend otherwise. Yet the cruelty was a means to an end, and Adam was quite proud of the many times when he had achieved the end without resorting to that means. But his new masters did not think that way, and sometimes it felt like the cruelty was the point, and with that, Adam could not agree.
Perhaps it had to do with Andronikos. Adam had tortured many men, and to be blunt, he felt that many had deserved punishment, although perhaps some not quite so severely. Yet Andronikos was certainly not one of them.
The sound of a door opening interrupted his thoughts, and then a pair of high-pitched shrieks. “Grandpa!” came the cry, and the welcome pain as his two granddaughters, seven and four, plowed into him.
Adam laughed, hugging them both tightly as they clutched at his shirt and pant legs, and then he looked up. His daughter was standing in the doorframe, smiling at him, looking tired but happy. She wiped her brow and then placed her hand on her highly pregnant belly. She looked so much like her mother thirty years ago that sometimes it hurt.
As Adam walked, he knew those earlier rationalizations were wrong. Only God and he would know what he had done, and Adam had done this for himself. He had done it, to prove to himself, that despite history, despite the past, despite the pain, horror, and cruelty, despite what he’d done and would do, despite it all…
Somehow, a piece of his soul survived.